Sunshine and happy pills

Or maybe sunshine IS happy pills...
so i've actually been feeling happy the last 3 days
it's completely out of the blue, and i feel as if i'm completely unaccustomed to it - but hey, i'm not going to complain! it's a nice relief to have... and i'm not letting myself dwell for any length of time on subjects that could bring me down, because i really, really want this to last.
and almost exactly in conjunction with my sudden, unexpected happy streak, the sun has finally made an appearance - and i don't just mean it's not raining, i mean yesterday and today my friends and i actually sat outside at lunch time, something we haven't done since the beginning of last september! and if you try and ingore the breeze, it even almost feels pleasantly warm, for this time of year at least.
and i haven't just been 'happy'. i've been talkative, and giddy, and 'in a weird mood', and god knows what else, for the last three days - and god only knows why! it's something i can't understand - although it hadn't crossed my mind until just this afternoon, i hadn't even considered the existance of the 'winter blues' - i'm not saying that was what was going on, but it does seem as though the sun finally coming out has cheered me up, well, rather considerably.
so it would seem, if my hopes can be granted, that this summer might just be a slightly happier time than i might have forseen (that is, of course, bearing in mind that i'm steering away from thinking of things that might bring me down, such as having to get a job this summer, which would mean i am no longer a 'child' that gets 'cared for', and also, that either way, this is the last summer where i can really feel like a 'child', off on my three months of carefree, void of responsibilities, summer holidays...)

xxx